Gratitudes

Jan. 10th, 2017 10:33 pm
dira: Gwen Cooper, in profile (Gwen - Flyaway)
This seems like a good habit, and a good antidote to a just-crushing-enough-to-be-very-distracting headache. So! Five things I'm grateful for tonight:

1. My apartment with heat included in the rent is nice and toasty despite the cold wind that is literally rattling the windows.

2. My new book is selling well and nine lovely people have reviewed it on Amazon!

3. This long and complicated and lovely Teen Wolf a/b/o fic which made an excellent antidote to all the adulting I had to do today.

4. The grocery store had the tub of freshly-packed shredded roast chicken AND the bread freshly baked with roasted garlic, so my inability to actually assemble components into proper meals did not deter me from having a tasty and semi-respectable dinner tonight.

5. The lovely [personal profile] alby_mangroves' really good and helpful beta on the fic I will be posting Very Soon Now, once I am done carefully considering whether the Winter Soldier SHOULD be carrying more knives, and what I was even trying to say in that really muddled paragraph....
dira: Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier (Default)
Speaking of writing gay werewolves for money!



THE ALPHA’S HOME will be officially released on January 5!!




An omega forced to mate an alpha he hates turns to his beta best friend for help to escape–but the only way out is to be stolen by another alpha.

Grant Denny is an omega who never wanted an alpha mate. He doesn’t want to be a sex toy for an entire pack, even if the alternative is to go through the agony of full moon heats locked up alone. But the choice has been taken away from him–he’s been given to Cliff, an alpha he can’t stand, who is keeping him in a remote cabin along with Jack, a beta who is his best friend, packmate, and the only person he’s ever wanted.

Jack Merritt is trapped in his wolf shape by the cruel alpha who claimed Grant against his will, and took Jack along with him. Jack has loved Grant forever, and he’ll do anything to stay with the omega–but Grant begs him to run away at the first chance, to try to find some way they can both escape before Grant’s heat arrives and forces him to submit to the alpha. Jack would do anything for Grant, but leaving him behind is the hardest thing he’s ever done.

Mike Gilford has been an alpha werewolf for half a year now, and he’s ready to find a mate and start a pack of his own. He never imagined that he would find them like this–a lost wolf, hurt and helpless by the side of the road, and the trapped omega he leads Mike to rescue. Mike only wants to help, but the moment he meets Grant the pull between them is undeniable–and terrifying to Grant, who is trying to escape from being bent to an alpha’s will.

Grant and Jack need a pack’s protection, and Mike is willing to give it, but can he keep them safe without keeping them prisoner? Can Grant learn to trust that Mike isn’t like the alphas he’s met before, and that his destiny as an omega isn’t the doom he’s always feared? With the full moon and Grant’s next heat on the way, there’s not much time for three wolves to make themselves a pack and find their way home…




There's also a teaser scene up on Tumblr! I still have a few advance copies available, let me know if you want one! :)
dira: Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier (Default)
...Wait a sec I have to go add "Another New World" to my playlist of Steve and/or Bucky sadness.

Okay! I'm back! And I have another new book!


The Omega Learns a Lesson, by Dessa Lux

This one is really just a short story, but it is a short story chock full of werewolfy feelingsy D/s and a/b/o gangbang action, and furthermore it is FREE through Sunday!
dira: Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier (Default)
1) My new book is out! :D



A werewolf who's spent his life without a pack meets a werewolf whose pack is the only reason he's alive. When these opposites attract, they both find out what they've been missing all along.

(Which is to say werewolf!Alec Hardison Brody gets a pack, and Nick gets a boyfriend! :D)

It's #3 in the Protection of the Pack series, and right now the whole series is on sale for 99 cents each! And if you would like to see what people other than me are saying about it, check out this tumblr post where I collected a few of my favorites.

2) I'm moving to Evanston tomorrow. O.O I've already turned in the cable box & modem for my apartment here, so I'm hanging out in my local coffee shop with a friend who lives in the neighborhood, enjoying a last few hours of wi-fi before tomorrow, when I will hopefully get U-verse installed promptly after my (and the movers') arrival. Fingers crossed that all of that timing works out. O________O

3) I cut down to like 26 blogs followed on Tumblr in the run-up to Civil War and in the face of my own lack of wherewithal to deal with same. But Civil War turned out to be pretty great for my purposes, and I am back to fearing no spoilers for a while, and enjoying a bit more flexibility in how I spend my time now that the dayjob is no more, and I've added back about... three? of the 80-some tumblrs I unfollowed. It's kind of soothing, having a comparatively quiet dash. (Which in turn seems to lead to me actually doing some blogging there, which I probably ought to link here?)

4) I think it's time to go get a brownie.
dira: Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier (Default)
This week has been sort of peak "what nice problems to have @_____@ oh god @______@"

Saturday: received last edit pass on The Omega's Pack and also the second-round edits on the forthcoming gay Catholic vampire novel I sold to Less Than Three Press in June. Elected to focus on the really urgent priority.

Sunday: spent the day doing last edits/proofread/formatting/etc and then published my new gay werewolf book!

Cover of The Omega
The Omega's Pack, by Dessa Lux! This is the sequel to The Omega's Bodyguard, and wound up being twice as long (62,000 words) but I eventually got to paying off the promised full moon heat gangbang! :D

Monday: in between obsessively tracking sales of The Omega's Pack and a weird, stupid paperwork fuckup at work to which the phrase "or your employment will be suspended" was attached (it seems to be fine, but not the calmest Monday), finally read edit letter. Scream a bit about the scale of edits being requested in the second round.

Celebrate launch of gay werewolf book by going to dinner at Hamburger Mary's, where I score the server whose customer service persona is Your Sassy Gay Friend. He calls me 'girl' every time he speaks to me and it's delightful. Possibly he is bored. I am his only table.

Tuesday: Get back edits on overdue birthday fic and spend the day editing and getting ready to post:

Prima Nocta (19877 words) by Dira Sudis
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies), Iron Man (Movies)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Slavery, Alternate Universe - Dystopia, Sexual Slavery, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Implied/Referenced Torture, Surgery, Medical Procedures, Chastity Device, Hurt/Comfort, Gentleness, Blankets, Hand Feeding, Dehumanization, Consent Issues, Starvation, Amputee Bucky Barnes, Stockholm Syndrome
Series: Part 1 of All These Burning Hearts in Hell
Summary:

This is the night Steve is stolen by Tony Stark, whose slaves disappear in industrial quantities. This is the night sex slave #32557038 is given to a new master and finds out what is expected of him. This is the night Tony saves two slaves and doesn't tell them any comforting lies like "You're free now."




Wednesday: is today! and I have a shit ton of writing to do on the thing I promised would be done on Friday. @__________@ And the meme fill that's been dangling two-thirds finished for weeks. And YULETIDE. OH GOD. AND MARVEL POLYDAYS.
WHAT HAVE I DONE. @__________________________@

ETA: OH HAHA RIGHT NOW I REMEMBER. Today I found the article where I'm quoted on the Mary Sue! (I knew this was going to happen, I just didn't know it was happening this week.) And created a commenting account just to apologize to the guy in the comments who said, "Hey, a friend of mine writes Transformers porn and it's really well-written!" I am sort of tempted to post the entire text of the email I sent to the author of the article, because I really liked the point I made at short-essay length better. *g*

Anyway: an extra dose of @____________________________________@ for my week.
dira: Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier (Default)
1. Young Miss Mentis is two weeks old and I am babysitting her (along with the faithful hound) so that Iulia and B could go out and see Spectre together.

We spent some time rocking in a dark room, as she's been a bit sleep-resistant all day (I read her some bits of The Martian off my phone, which seemed a somewhat more appropriate thing to share with her than the next chapter of The Silent World Within You, which I am reading for the first time this weekend and loving extravagantly. But now she has consented to sleep in her swing, and the faithful hound is lying directly across from her on the couch, keeping watch over her, so I can have both hands free to catch up on email and wildly procrastinate about doing any writing.

And so: posting here!

2. I am compulsively bouncing myself in the chair that I'm sitting in (which does indeed bounce a bit). SELF. IT'S OKAY. YOU DON'T HAVE TO ROCK HER. SHE'S ACROSS THE ROOM BEING ROCKED BY A WONDERFUL MACHINE.

*continues rocking anyway*

3. So I've been spending a lot of time hanging out/helping out with the baby, is I guess what I am saying? Not a lot a lot of time--I live in a different city and work full time--but this has been my last three weekends. Which is awesome, although it does lead to being a bit scattered on Mondays, and writing a bit less than I'd like to, although I'm not sure there has really ever been a time when I was writing as much as I'd like to.

4. OTOH with the help of some appropriate daily goals on Habitica I've been writing quite a bit! I'm getting really! quite! close! to finishing my sequel to The Omega's Bodyguard (Dessa Lux), which will be called The Omega's Pack. It's currently about... 48,000 words, and hopefully will wrap up somewhere in the 55-60k neighborhood within the next week or so and I can start getting it ready to publish! :D

Fic writing is also thumping along--I finished Act II of the broken dick epic WIP codenamed Aluminum Bastard, which brings about a shift in tone away from, like, "sometimes happy but always with an undercurrent of secret misery" and it is, in the early stages of Act III, a bit bewildering to be writing things getting better.

(*still compulsively rocking while alone in chair*)

And I've gotten to the point where I've written a few bits of my Yuletide story and am convinced that it will be totally manageable and not really that long at all, so, you know, remember this for later when I'm sobbing about it on December 19 or whatever.

5. The movie started nearly two hours ago and Iulia has not yet stepped out of the theater to text me and ask how the baby is doing so hopefully that means either Spectre is good or she is having a bit of a nap in the theater.

6. I put this on Tumblr the other day, but in case people over here are also interested: The first scene of The Omega's Pack, introducing Rusty's BFF Nick. (Woobie Alert.) )
dira: Nate Fick, keeping his chin up (Nate - Chin Up)
So I may have mentioned that writing-for-money is a big thing going on in my life recently, and this week I have a new thing to show for it:

The Omega's Bodyguard, super tropey over the top ridiculous gay werewolf romance (with future loving pack gangbangs on the horizon for the omega in the title in the, er, many sequels I have plotted out). It's a/b/o, ish, because a/b/o is a thing that has escaped from fandom into the wilds of self-published ebooks on Amazon, but, uh, not mpreg, because it still weirds me out that MPREG is a thing that is super common in self-pubbed ebooks on Amazon, and also some people are not into that but are still into swoony subby dudes who just want to get fucked a lot by their alpha. I am here for those people.

(This is *totally not* Generation Kill fanfic which you can tell because the dudes' names are Rusty and Sam instead of Brad and Nate! And they are actualfax werewolves instead of being soulbonded to wolves. (Wait what do you mean psychic wolves are not an obligatory feature of GK fic.) See? Totally different.)

Anyway, it's free this weekend, so get it now if that's the sort of thing you are interested in! :D

Also please admire the cover that I did not make myself. I LOVE COVERS THAT I DO NOT MAKE MYSELF, THEY ARE THE BEST THING.

(Also it got RT'd by Charlie Jane Anders last night????? and is now the #1 free ebook gay romance on Amazon????? SO. THIS IS GOING WELL.)
dira: Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier (Default)
Swiped from a bunch of people on my flist, and I figure I didn't quite go anywhere but other than fic updates I've been pretty quiet, so...

So what have you been up to?

I'm just about three months into being on the Adderall, which has been super helpful although not miraculous and not, like, magically removing all constraints on my ability to accomplish things. ALAS.

So: I've been up to writing, mostly, a lot by any sane standard but still not as much as I'd like given how many irons I have in the fire.

Also, thanks to the slow accumulation of flist people's mentions of using treadmill desks to knock some of the sedentary rust off, I finally accepted that my preferred mode of exercise is Pretending I'm Still On My Couch. I can't actually manage a treadmill desk right now--shared apartment, logistics, etc.--but I got myself a gym membership and have started popping over there about six mornings a week to walk briskly while playing games on my phone or reading ebooks or fic, etc. And, hey! That whole "excercising gives you more energy" thing turns out to be true! I just... had to be on Adderall for a month before I had the starting energy/general wherewithal to find that out.

Oh and I joined OKCupid. I have this sort of baseline desire to get into some sort of romantic relationship, but I hate Going Out And Doing Things With Strangers, and I kept feeling bad about failing at that part and finally realized that I don't like going out and doing things with strangers and there are, theoretically, other more efficient ways to meet compatible people who want to do dating-type things.

Mostly this has demonstrated to me that I am already operating at full capacity to deal with other human beings. *eyes unanswered OKC messages* So... that's good to know?

Oh and there was VividCon! ...which also demonstrated to me that I am already operating at full capacity to deal with other human beings. I had been feeling vaguely anxious and stressed about the con beforehand, which is... not usually how I feel about VVC, and then I got to the con and felt stressed and overwhelmed and signally failed to hang out with all the people I wanted to hang out with, and finally wound up hitting the Introvert Wall late Saturday/early Sunday and bailing out early (after [personal profile] iulia took charge of my Sunday afternoon volunteer shift and told me to just go home).

Oh also I tested positive for strep throat on Wednesday and had a couple of days off work. Hooray antibiotics!

Major life changes? Same old same old?

Writing for money! Writing for money has been kind of a large feature of the last few months, coinciding pretty strongly with the arrival of my constant sense of being overwhelmed and operating at full capacity for dealing with other human beings. The extra disposable income is really nice, but it turns out that having what amounts to a second job takes up time/energy/spoons/writing brain. WHO KNEW.

There are further major life changes on the horizon--Iulia is expecting her first child in October, which means I will be a godmother! And also the only vaguely local extended-family-ish person my godchild has around, so I expect some delightful life upheaval there.

And not unrelatedly, I am at long last getting Really Quite Serious about relocating to the greater Chicagoland area, hopefully in the first half of 2016.

With all of that going on/on the horizon it is... perhaps less surprising that the new Cap 3 promos were legitimately upsetting to me this week as a reminder that my fannish territory is also going to be undergoing an upheaval soon.

What fandom are you in/do you spend most of your time in?

Marvel/Cap 2! I have fallen especially into the Hydra Trash Party corner of the fandom. Content aside, it's one of the most old-school-fan friendly parts of the fandom in terms of being able to connect with a community of fans--there's a chat room, a DW kinkmeme with a chat post, and an identifiable group of writers and artists who are pretty reachable via Tumblr.

But, you know, also making Bucky cry is fun, even if it leads to things like, "Man, I am eventually going to post 25k of male lactation fic with a complicated pairings situation and alarming set of warnings to the AO3." Could've been worse, really.

Where do you hang out online?

Twitter, Tumblr, trash chat, that other chat room I've been hanging out in since 2005, Skype IM which is apparently a thing (I'm dsudis on there), and AIM/YM/etc.

What are you reading?

One of the exciting things about extra disposable income is that I feel okay casually buying ebooks--I use the Kindle Cloud Reader & Kindle phone app, and virtually the only books I've finished since May have been short-ish romances: Sarina Bowen, K. J. Charles, Alexis Hall. Right now I'm reading Courtney Milan's The Duchess War, and then I need to read a book that was made into a movie for my staff summer reading competition at work. I might just read The Martian for the third time.

And also fic? I haven't been reading huge quantities, but there's a pretty steady accumulation in my AO3 bookmarks.

What are you watching?

Every scrap of promo media related to The Martian! :D :D :D

Oh and I just started on Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries which is DELIGHTFUL and reminding me that I am 100% an easy mark for canon het. Phryne/Jack!!!!!

What are you making?

My desktop note that I use to track WIPs currently has ten items on it:

Original/for money: Vampire novel that I am waiting for edits on from Less than Three (Dira Lewis); ridiculous tropey gay werewolf ebook (Dessa Lux); sequel to vampire novel (Dira Lewis); tropey het ebook (redacted).

Fanfic: Aluminum Bastard/broken dick epic; Babyfic prequel to the trash kidfic; trash kinkmeme fic; more different trash kinkmeme fic; Spy Game post-movie fic; sequel to that fic I wrote where Steve's wearing a pink silk chemise.

So... I need to write faster. In conclusion.

What are you squeeing about today?

Well, literally today is Iulia's baby shower, so: impending godchild!

A little more generally: The Martian, Miss Fisher, Chris Evans and Anthony Mackie's most recent press appearances (THEIR FACES. THE BELT GRAB.)

If you could rope old fandom friends into a new fandom, it would be...

THE MARTIAN!!! READ IT. JOIN ME IN BEING EXCITED FOR THIS MOVIE FOR ENTIRELY NON-SEBASTIAN-STAN-RELATED REASONS. JOIN ME IN JUDGING PEOPLE WHO INTEND TO SEE THIS MOVIE FOR SEBASTIAN STAN.

I should really watch/read/dive into _______ and then come talk to you about it!

THE MARTIAN. It's a quick read! There are adorable/hilarious promo videos!! I CAN TALK ABOUT THE MARTIAN FOREVER.

What else is on your mind?

I really need to trim and file my nails. And also I need to see if I can lure Iulia and her husband to the Original Pancake House for giant apple pancake breakfast tomorrow morning before we trek back to our side of the Lake with all the baby shower loot. Hmmmm.

May 2017

S M T W T F S
 123456
7 8910111213
14151617181920
21 222324252627
28293031   

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated May. 22nd, 2017 07:23 pm
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios