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Way, Way More Than You Ever Wanted to Know.
1. I am puzzled by how reluctant I am to do this meme
2. I consider it a central feature of my personality that I love talking about myself
3. I therefore find myself self-conscious about talking too much about myself
4. I am aware that this is my own live journal and cut-tagged and therefore I should probably just get on with it already
5. I use the word 'wibbling' to describe my mental state to myself an awful lot
6. I think in words
7. I hear my own voice in my head, speaking my thoughts - the version of my voice that only I hear
8. I am occasionally paranoid about how repellant my voice 'really' sounds
9. I am really, really self-centered
10. I am trying to learn not to hate myself
11. I just went on a nine-day solo road trip which demonstrated to me that I can function quite happily at great distances from everyone I know and love
12. I feel bad about that
13. I feel bad about a lot of things
14. It doesn't stop me from doing them, I just feel bad a lot
15. I am in some sort of physical pain almost all the time
16. I am trying to convince myself that this is not a moral failing
17. I have no health insurance
18. I am really, really tired of being my parents' dependent
19. I keep getting distracted by the fact that none of these statements have end punctuation
20. I am learning, slowly, to be wary of making definitive statements about who I am, since they generally turn out to be wrong in some way
21. I suspect that I'm doing this wrong
22. I drink Diet Coke and Mountain Dew, because I like the tastes
23. I feel better about myself the less I eat
24. I haven't been hungry on a regular basis since Christmas of 2000
25. I am irrationally attached to the red properties in Monopoly, and tend to lose the game because of that
26. I sometimes form irrational dislikes toward things (books, movies, professors) and can rarely be shaken out of them
27. Otherwise, I like almost everything
28. I am learning to be critical
29. I have been writing since I can remember
30. I read Baby Island at age seven, and wrote shipwreck stories for about three years afterward
31. I discovered that the author needs to know where the story is going at age ten, when I read "Lob," for my literature class
32. I was sitting on the bench outside the school office, discussing the story with my teacher, Mr. Veine, and remarked that the author really seemed to know the ending of the story, and he said, very kindly, that she did.
33. I stopped writing shipwreck stories after that and switched to all horses, all the time.
34. I did not have an actual friend until a couple of months before my fourteenth birthday.
35. I am now absolutely certain that I'm doing this wrong.
36. I'm sorry.
37. I like to wear red.
38. I am orally fixated.
39. I bite my nails.
40. I think smoking is cool.
41. I have never actually smoked, and probably never will.
42. I like drinking.
43. I don't do it very often.
44. My hair is dark brown and very, very long.
45. I keep telling people I'm going to donate it to Locks of Love.
46. I think I have now told enough people that that I will actually have to do it.
47. I wear contacts, but I can function without them.
48. My arms are tanned, but nothing else.
49. I haven't worn shorts in the past year.
50. I can't remember the last time I went swimming.
51. My teeth are crooked.
52. I suspect that this, too, is a moral failing, since I didn't wear my retainer enough.
53. I was raised Catholic - what, you could tell?
54. I want to be married in the Church someday
55. I believe in a God, sort of
56. I don't believe in an afterlife
57. I'm not Catholic now and I don't think I ever will be
58. I actually *don't* feel bad about the hypocrisy inherent in #54-57
59. I love my Dad and my brothers beyond all reason
60. I love my Mom, too.
61. But it's complicated.
62. I want a kid.
63. I always thought I wanted lots, but lately I think one or maybe two would be better.
64. All of my life, I have wanted to be two things: a mother, and a writer.
65. I remember being seven years old and trying to figure out what other job would be not-bad enough to do for money.
66. I am still trying to figure that out.
67. I have had the same best friend since the first week of high school.
68. I now introduce her to strangers as my hetero life mate.
69. We have rings.
70. She has a boyfriend, and yes that is a fact about me.
71. I am straight.
72. I thought really hard about not being straight, but I couldn't change it.
73. I think there are alternate universes where that worked out differently.
74. I spend an inordinate amount of time wishing I were a guy.
75. I haven't been on a date since May 2002, and I dumped my last boyfriend in February 1998.
76. I was sixteen.
77. First base. Maybe.
78. I wish it were otherwise. A lot.
79. But not enough to actually go out looking for guys to date-or-whatever.
80. I am lonely.
81. I am self-sufficient.
82. My three most precious possessions are my laptop, my paper journals, and my teddy bear.
83. My laptop's name is Mark Pierre.
84. I received my teddy bear for Christmas in 1987, and have slept with him ever since.
85. I used to read a lot of character-driven SF and Fantasy.
86. Now I read slash.
87. I regret that. Some.
88. I have close to 1,400 mp3s, all but one of them illegally obtained.
89. I don't know why I don't feel bad about that.
90. I've been reading romance novels since I was ten, when I stole my mom's.
91. I used to steal, when I was 8 and 9 years old.
92. I still think about it sometimes.
93. I think I could get away with it.
94. I have a headache.
95. I'm going to edit this before anyone other than Missi sees it.
ETA: But everybody said not to, so I didn't.
96. I like maps.
97. I know I'm not trying hard enough.
98. I hate knowing that every obsession is a phase that will pass.
99. I'm trying not to care.
100. I--oh, fuck it.
thelionforreal says I have to...Way, Way More Than You Ever Wanted to Know.
1. I am puzzled by how reluctant I am to do this meme
2. I consider it a central feature of my personality that I love talking about myself
3. I therefore find myself self-conscious about talking too much about myself
4. I am aware that this is my own live journal and cut-tagged and therefore I should probably just get on with it already
5. I use the word 'wibbling' to describe my mental state to myself an awful lot
6. I think in words
7. I hear my own voice in my head, speaking my thoughts - the version of my voice that only I hear
8. I am occasionally paranoid about how repellant my voice 'really' sounds
9. I am really, really self-centered
10. I am trying to learn not to hate myself
11. I just went on a nine-day solo road trip which demonstrated to me that I can function quite happily at great distances from everyone I know and love
12. I feel bad about that
13. I feel bad about a lot of things
14. It doesn't stop me from doing them, I just feel bad a lot
15. I am in some sort of physical pain almost all the time
16. I am trying to convince myself that this is not a moral failing
17. I have no health insurance
18. I am really, really tired of being my parents' dependent
19. I keep getting distracted by the fact that none of these statements have end punctuation
20. I am learning, slowly, to be wary of making definitive statements about who I am, since they generally turn out to be wrong in some way
21. I suspect that I'm doing this wrong
22. I drink Diet Coke and Mountain Dew, because I like the tastes
23. I feel better about myself the less I eat
24. I haven't been hungry on a regular basis since Christmas of 2000
25. I am irrationally attached to the red properties in Monopoly, and tend to lose the game because of that
26. I sometimes form irrational dislikes toward things (books, movies, professors) and can rarely be shaken out of them
27. Otherwise, I like almost everything
28. I am learning to be critical
29. I have been writing since I can remember
30. I read Baby Island at age seven, and wrote shipwreck stories for about three years afterward
31. I discovered that the author needs to know where the story is going at age ten, when I read "Lob," for my literature class
32. I was sitting on the bench outside the school office, discussing the story with my teacher, Mr. Veine, and remarked that the author really seemed to know the ending of the story, and he said, very kindly, that she did.
33. I stopped writing shipwreck stories after that and switched to all horses, all the time.
34. I did not have an actual friend until a couple of months before my fourteenth birthday.
35. I am now absolutely certain that I'm doing this wrong.
36. I'm sorry.
37. I like to wear red.
38. I am orally fixated.
39. I bite my nails.
40. I think smoking is cool.
41. I have never actually smoked, and probably never will.
42. I like drinking.
43. I don't do it very often.
44. My hair is dark brown and very, very long.
45. I keep telling people I'm going to donate it to Locks of Love.
46. I think I have now told enough people that that I will actually have to do it.
47. I wear contacts, but I can function without them.
48. My arms are tanned, but nothing else.
49. I haven't worn shorts in the past year.
50. I can't remember the last time I went swimming.
51. My teeth are crooked.
52. I suspect that this, too, is a moral failing, since I didn't wear my retainer enough.
53. I was raised Catholic - what, you could tell?
54. I want to be married in the Church someday
55. I believe in a God, sort of
56. I don't believe in an afterlife
57. I'm not Catholic now and I don't think I ever will be
58. I actually *don't* feel bad about the hypocrisy inherent in #54-57
59. I love my Dad and my brothers beyond all reason
60. I love my Mom, too.
61. But it's complicated.
62. I want a kid.
63. I always thought I wanted lots, but lately I think one or maybe two would be better.
64. All of my life, I have wanted to be two things: a mother, and a writer.
65. I remember being seven years old and trying to figure out what other job would be not-bad enough to do for money.
66. I am still trying to figure that out.
67. I have had the same best friend since the first week of high school.
68. I now introduce her to strangers as my hetero life mate.
69. We have rings.
70. She has a boyfriend, and yes that is a fact about me.
71. I am straight.
72. I thought really hard about not being straight, but I couldn't change it.
73. I think there are alternate universes where that worked out differently.
74. I spend an inordinate amount of time wishing I were a guy.
75. I haven't been on a date since May 2002, and I dumped my last boyfriend in February 1998.
76. I was sixteen.
77. First base. Maybe.
78. I wish it were otherwise. A lot.
79. But not enough to actually go out looking for guys to date-or-whatever.
80. I am lonely.
81. I am self-sufficient.
82. My three most precious possessions are my laptop, my paper journals, and my teddy bear.
83. My laptop's name is Mark Pierre.
84. I received my teddy bear for Christmas in 1987, and have slept with him ever since.
85. I used to read a lot of character-driven SF and Fantasy.
86. Now I read slash.
87. I regret that. Some.
88. I have close to 1,400 mp3s, all but one of them illegally obtained.
89. I don't know why I don't feel bad about that.
90. I've been reading romance novels since I was ten, when I stole my mom's.
91. I used to steal, when I was 8 and 9 years old.
92. I still think about it sometimes.
93. I think I could get away with it.
94. I have a headache.
95. I'm going to edit this before anyone other than Missi sees it.
ETA: But everybody said not to, so I didn't.
96. I like maps.
97. I know I'm not trying hard enough.
98. I hate knowing that every obsession is a phase that will pass.
99. I'm trying not to care.
100. I--oh, fuck it.