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On Wednesday this time! I’m doing less-pretty links in the hopes that they will actually carry across to DW/LJ and I won’t have to edit them all back in this week. Fingers crossed!


Still reading Interface, still listening to Glitterland, and just about to start reading Penric’s Demon by Lois McMaster Bujold (very belatedly! but the random number generator that rules my ebook choices finally served it up.)

Book(s) finished:

A Queer Trade (http://ift.tt/1U2oZNi) by KJ Charles, in the same continuity as the Charm of Magpies series. This is a short m/m romance featuring a black man working as a waste-paper seller in Victorian London and the hapless magic-worker who needs his help. <3


I have 5 AO3 tabs open + 1 hydratrashmeme notification in my inbox + 51 things marked for later. I think I’m going to try “We Are The Time, We Are The Famous” by coricomile next–it’s Sid/Geno/some bloke I’ve never heard of, and the title makes me smile every time I click on that tab. :D

Fic finished:

(A sampling of stuff I’ve bookmarked recently–you can see all my bookmarks at http://ift.tt/2bFC4A9)

Our Lingering Frost (http://ift.tt/1so8i1Z) by eyres - Bucky/Steve, from 2014, an AU in which Bucky was recovered c.1960, then waited 50 more years for Steve’s plane to be found. (Read on a rec from @daily-stucky-recs​, which you should follow if you are into that sort of thing.)

mixed feelings about the function and the form (http://ift.tt/2aCsJEm) by carpenter - Ghostbusters, Patty/Holtzy, with an awesome Patty POV and a thoughtful focus on INFRASTRUCTURE because who doesn’t love stories about infrastructure? 

Out of All Our Crazy Dreams (http://ift.tt/2bnSUCS) by thesardine - Part 4 of the Alphabet series, which you should definitely read first!!

The Way Out Is the Way Down (http://ift.tt/2axJ6X1) by Speranza - Bucky/Steve, post-CACW fixing everything <3

Marks of Ownership (http://ift.tt/2bjzRKZ) complete on hydratrashmeme - gen, with a deeply dehumanized Bucky who is safe with the Avengers now and just wants to show the correct organizational affiliation on his (its) body. WARNING for self-scarification and a very depersonalized POV.

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Sibylla ex Ampulla (8423 words) by Dira Sudis
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Additional Tags: HYDRA Trash Party, hydratrashmeme, Amputee Bucky Barnes, Quadruple Amputee, Past Rape/Non-con, Past Torture, Domestic Fluff, Fluff and Smut, Bucky Barnes getting on with his life, Caretaking, Rimming, Anal Sex, Sleepy Cuddles

Bucky Barnes walked into the apartment he shared with Steve on his own two feet (bought and paid for--he kept the receipts for all of his prosthetics in their own folder in the fireproof filing cabinet). His very long day was over, and the night could begin any time now.

Written for a prompt at the hydratrashmeme: Bucky has lost all four limbs. [From context: as a form of torture by HYDRA, accompanied by sexual abuses.] He uses high-tech prosthetics to function and generally manages quite well. But every evening, he takes them off and lets Steve take care of him. I just want Steve consensually pleasuring a helpless quadruple amputee Bucky. Consensually and pleasure being the key words.

Title is a tip of my hat to Stoatsandwich's story "Nam Sibyllam", which is about a Bucky who didn't get the chance to survive this well after this kind of torture, and which you should probably not go read unless you are very, very sure you are into that sort of thing. Stoat is quoting from, and I am countering, a passage of Petronius (used by T. S. Eliot as an epigraph to The Waste Land) which begins, Nam Sibyllam quidem Cumis ego ipse oculis meis vidi in ampulla...
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(It’s supposed to be Wednesday, for alliteration, but I am not that organized this week, so. Thursday! Because I figure that you might like to know what I’m reading as well as what I’m writing?) 


In addition to my handful of “haven’t admitted I’m not going to go back and finish it” books, I’m currently reading Interface by Stephen Bury, a book (in fact, the very same elderly paperback copy) [personal profile] iulia​ has reread every election season of the last 16 years or so, and I have somehow never read at all. Until now! 

I’m also somewhere in the middle of listening to the audiobook of Glitterland by Alexis Hall, which is hilarious in audio format, but I’ve gotten to the part where the protagonist is going to Make Really Bad Choices and so I put it down a couple of weeks ago and haven’t listened since. (Seriously though, in audio it is even more apparent than it is in text that Glitterland is the story of Strindberg and Helium falling in love. Which is beautiful, but not without perils.)

Books finished:

Confiscating Charlie: I don’t remember when I bought this–it’s a novelette, so a very compressed erotic romance, definitely calling out to the part of your id that is into bodice-ripping (het) romances, with the rich and powerful hero and innocent 19-year-old heroine and a little bondage and you-belong-to-me thrown in. Honestly… less rape-y than I was concerned it would be from the title?

The Usual Path to Publication: 27 stories about 27 ways in: A collection of delightful short essays from authors about how they “made it,” including many touching on the question of what the hell it even means to “make it” as a professional or published writer. Upbeat, even though not all of them are unambiguous success stories.

Sutphin Boulevard: More or less everyone I know who reads m/m romance has yelled at me at some point to read Santino Hassell, and I finally read this and it was good! …I also stopped reading it for about 36 hours halfway through because I was dreading the character making A Bad Decision (he actually didn’t make that particular bad decision, but the plot is definitely driven by Bad Decisions) (and also by a kind of maddening refusal to accept being in love with one’s best friend who one has already had sex with in the first few chapters of the book, ugh, BOYS).


I have 12 tabs open + 45 things marked for later on AO3 + 4 comment notifications for hydratrashmeme fills sitting in my inbox.

Fic finished:

(A sampling of stuff I’ve bookmarked recently.)

All Is Good That Is Desired by [archiveofourown.org profile] archwrites - Bucky/Peggy/Steve sex pollen!!

The well-fought fight by Sororising - Sam/Steve, comparing notes on growing up bi in their respective eras.

Speechless by [archiveofourown.org profile] sara_holmes - Bucky/Clint, Bucky has trouble speaking and decides to learn ASL, Clint is his teacher! Sweet & lovely AU.

Aaaand my favorite thing I read on the hydratrashmeme this week is The True Repairman Will Repair Man, which is a WIP, currently up to Part 9/?, and is being written for a prompt where Bucky insists that all the sex he had with members of HYDRA during his captivity was consensual, and can’t understand why Steve thinks it wasn’t. So far nothing in his past is really described–the story is in Steve’s POV–so it’s doing the monster-just-offscreen horror thing in a deeply unnerving and awesome way. Caveat lector!

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Ohhh look while I was really stressed out I wrote fic about terrible things happening to a very vulnerable Bucky and Steve taking care of him. WHO IS SURPRISED? IS IT NO ONE? IT IS PROBABLY NO ONE.

(I am less stressed out now! And writing more, which means I will probably finish a couple of other things on this approximate theme in the next little while. So. Hope you enjoy extremely vulnerable Bucky and caretaking Steve?)

Til I Wanted to Change (10790 words) by Dira Sudis
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes/Hydra Agents, James "Bucky" Barnes/Original Male Character(s)
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Original Male Character, Civilian Pervert
Additional Tags: HYDRA Trash Party, Medical Trauma, Rape Recovery, Medical Kink, unsafe kink, Under-negotiated Kink, Hurt/Comfort, don't do complicated kinky stuff with a guy you just met on craigslist, Body Dysphoria, Body Modification, butthole dysphoria, Dissociation, Safewords, Consensual But Not Safe Or Sane, Lollipops, Baked Goods, Comfort Sex, Happy Ending

Luckily it turns out to be true what Steve and Sam have told him: you really can find anything on the internet.

He finds a guy whose ad bears the headline THE DOCTOR IS IN with (YOUR ASS) instead of the name of the neighborhood where he lives.

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I... wrote this. Yes. Yes I did.

Thanks to celeryy for beta! Title from "We Used to Wait" by Arcade Fire.

Something Pure Can Last (6875 words) by Dira Sudis
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes
Additional Tags: HYDRA Trash Party, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Rape Recovery, Bucky's Broken Dick, Small Penis, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, hydratrashmeme, Chastity Device, Body Modification, Steve is turned on by Bucky's everything, even the parts Bucky is not happy about himself, but in a loving way really, Fisting, Overstimulation, Crying

He was big and Bucky was small now, in this one way; maybe Bucky wouldn't mind too much if Steve wanted to take good care of him. Bucky had always taken such good care of Steve before. It was only fair to take turns.

Originally written at the hydratrashmeme for the following prompt:

WS Bucky was kept in chastity any time he was out of cryo. ... Since he wasn't given the chance to get hard they'd just milk his prostrate to drain his balls. This made him really sensitive to prostate stimulation which leads me to: I want the aftermath of this with Steve. Bucky can't get it up but he can come, and come hard, by getting fucked. Maybe Steve gets off on how soft Bucky stays while Steve fucks him ... I will be an extra happy dumpster camper if you have Steve fondling Bucky's flaccid cock while he gets him off or fucks him.
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So, uh, if you read my journal here, you... may have noticed that I have slid into a corner of Captain America fandom known as the Hydra Trash Party. In case you have not worked out what that phrase signifies, here is the fanlore article for the Hydra Trash Party. (I wrote that! I am weirdly, intensely proud of it.)

We've gone ten rounds of "non-con fic is awful and no one should write it" wank over on Tumblr lately--there is always going to be one more outraged person on Tumblr tagging their outrage for trash partiers to find and argue with--but in the last 24 hours I've been really, really feeling my love for the Dumpster and all my trashmates.

Fond musings on the trash party under the cut, including non-explicit discussion of a kinkmeme prompt involving rape in a character's backstory. )

PS, tonight Tumblr led me unto the Internet Archive's collection of every episode of The Joy of Painting, in case you need some soothing palate-cleanser and/or a kindly affirmation that you can do whatevvvvver you want with the fictional worlds you create.

(Bucky cries a lot in mine, that's just how I like things to be. Maybe in yours he's happy and eats pizza and has a lot of happy sex with the partner or partners of his choosing! Everybody gets to make their own world. Thanks, Bob Ross.)


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