A compliation of my Endgame reaction posts from Tumblr

[dira]

Under the tag: all the spoilers, none of the squee. Click at own risk.

My Endgame reactions on Tumblr today, a play in three acts.



#1

My reaction, after twelve hours:

[STOP READING THERE IF YOU REALLY ENJOYED THE MOVIE AND ARE HAPPY ABOUT HOW IT ENDED, I WAS UP REALLY LATE LAST NIGHT AND I’M TIRED! HAHA!]

…Anyway, I wish I actually meant that humorously in the sense that I was awake until 2 in the morning between seeing the movie and hashing out my feelings about it, but, no, I just mean…

Look, I can see ways to bend and twist and reconstruct the material that movie gave us into a lot of fun and enjoyable and great fic? But at this point I don’t even want to because I am just. so. fucking. tired. of engaging with a canon that thought THOSE were good endings for the characters I’ve spent a decade bonding with. What the actual fuck. I keep trying to like, rank the original six’s endings in order of which I am most to least mad about, but I just–what the actual everliving fuck.

Also it is sort of impressive, in a trainwrecky way, how many character arcs get warped into incoherence, grim futility, or total fucking nihilism by the gravitational pull of these endings. Like. Wow, I retroactively dislike other movies because this is apparently where you were going that whole time! AWESOME. THANKS I HATE IT.

https://dsudis.tumblr.com/post/184459811109/endgame-thoughts-i-guess-spoilers-under-the-cut

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#2

Another Endgame thought, this one about Steve and his storyline. Which I am not squeeing about in this post.

Okay, so, everyone always sees a different version of the same movie, right, we all know that.

But it is fucking SURREAL to see a character’s ending and go “wow that was an only barely metaphorical suicide concluding his six-movie arc of depression and alienation, I need to go huddle with The Magicians fans now” and then have people cheering about what a beautiful and romantic and life-affirming happy ending it was.

https://dsudis.tumblr.com/post/184465063904/another-endgame-thought-this-one-about-steve-and

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#3

Third and perhaps most inevitable Endgame Thought

…oh no I just spent an hour plotting out the fic I want to write to fix EVERYTHING.

https://dsudis.tumblr.com/post/184467130094/third-and-perhaps-most-inevitable-endgame-thought

Comments

[kore]

I thiiiiink that's what the Russos were aiming for, yeah, re "Peggy's husband". They seem insistent that Steve was not in an alternate reality but he's also not changing anything and that's him at the end, and none of that works. So our Steve is hidden in a big cupboard in Peggy's bedroom or something until 2012? IDK.

part of the reason I saw Steve's ending so much as basically a suicide was that I couldn't see any explanation but that it was some kind of pocket reality that didn't change actual reality--so he went and lived out the rest of his life in some dream

That was super unpleasant, as is the idea that he's not really with his Peggy or Bucky (or Sam if things go that far) -- they're different versions of the people he knew, and he's in someone else's life....he's effectively stealing it. Altho they seem to think that since this would happen while Steve is frozen, so no harm no foul. -- Does that mean Steve just disappears after 2012 and lets everything happen, including abandoning Peggy when she's old and ill, leaving Bucky, knowing HYDRA is everywhere? He's okay with that? And then comes back to our timeline? Is he visiting or about to die or does he want to retire here? It's so unclear and infuriating.